Have you recovered from a toxic relationship with a narcissist, or are you in the process of narcissistic abuse recovery now? If the answer is yes, then you have a pretty good understanding of what it’s like to live in a world where you’re conditioned to feel shame, right?
How Do You Overcome Shame in Narcissistic Abuse Recovery?
If you have just come out of a relationship with a narcissist, you may find yourself feeling ashamed of many things – up to and including feeling shame about who you are as a person. This can cause significant bumps in your narcissistic abuse recovery and in your life, to put it mildly.
So how do you overcome shame during or after a toxic relationship with an abusive narcissist? It can feel impossible, and it might even seem hopeless – but there are ways you can work through and overcome this.
What is Shame?
Shame is a defense mechanism that protects us from the painful realities of our past. When it comes to having been in a toxic relationship with a narcissist, shame feels like a deep, dark feeling that can be hard to shake if you’ve ever been in a relationship with a narcissist.
Some things you might experience as a result of dealing with shame in a toxic relationship with a narcissist include the following.
- Narcissists will create situations that make you feel as though you did something wrong or inappropriate – even when you didn’t.
- Shame can be an extremely difficult emotion to overcome because it makes you feel helpless.
- Shame keeps you doubting yourself.
- Shame fuels the lie that “you could have done more.”
- Shame convinces you that you have no right to be proud of your accomplishments or to celebrate your successes.
What is the difference between shame and guilt?
- Shame is an emotion that we feel when we feel unlovable. It is a feeling of worthlessness and it goes hand in hand with guilt.
- Guilt is the feeling of having done something wrong. Shame is the feeling of being something wrong.
- While guilt is feeling bad about our actions, shame is feeling bad about who we are, intrinsically.
Video: An In-Depth Discussion on Overcoming Shame
In this video, Lise Colucci and I take an in-depth look at what shame is, why you feel it after being involved with a narcissist, where it starts, and how you can overcome it.
Why do we feel so much shame in narcissistic abuse?
We experience shame whenever someone makes us feel like we don’t belong, or when they make us feel like we are not good enough. It’s a common emotion to feel after leaving a relationship with a narcissist because they are always trying to make us feel that way.
When we have been in a relationship with a narcissist who has been gaslighting us, projecting their own faults and flaws onto us, and making us believe that we were crazy, stupid, or otherwise inferior in some way all along, it can be difficult to avoid feelings of shame if this person was also someone who you loved very much.
It’s important to remember that the only reason you stayed in this relationship for as long as you did was that you truly believed that there was something wrong with you and that it was your fault; otherwise, you would have left sooner!
What is the connection between trauma and shame?
Nearly everyone who goes through a toxic relationship that involves narcissistic abuse will find themselves left with serious trauma issues. And when we experience something traumatic, it is common to feel a sense of shame. We may feel ashamed of ourselves and our circumstances. We may even feel ashamed that we allowed the abuse to occur and continue for so long. We may feel like a fool for not seeing the warning signs or for not having the courage to leave sooner.
This shame can be one of the hardest parts of recovery from narcissistic abuse. It is a shame that often manifests as anger, anxiety, depression, and guilt. These feelings are very isolating because they make us feel like we are alone in our experiences and that there is no way out of our pain.
What are the signs you’re being shamed by a narcissist?
You Have Intrusive Toxic Thoughts
Once you allow shame into your life, it becomes very easy to accept other toxic thoughts as truths as well such as:
- “No one really cares about me.”
- “People won’t listen to me.”
- “I don’t deserve better than this.”
- “I’m not good enough.”
You Accept Responsibility for Everything – Including the Shame
You might feel like the shame is yours, but it’s not. The narcissist is shaming you. He or she is projecting their own feelings of shame onto you. By making you feel ashamed of yourself and your actions, the narcissist can control you.
You Feel ‘Dead Inside’
Narcissists have a way of making people wish for the worst. If you’ve dealt with a narcissist who has shamed you and you’ve ever thought or said you were ‘dead inside’ – that’s a big sign that you’re dealing with shame. Please remember that you deserve better.
Dissociation (or feeling disconnected, like you’re not really here, like you’re in a fog, watching your life on a movie screen, or anything similar) is another common experience shared by survivors who deal with shame.
The Narcissist’s Behaviors
The good news is that you don’t have to live in this hell forever. The first step to overcoming shame is recognizing the signs of being shamed by a narcissist:
- The narcissist is very controlling and you live in fear of their reactions.
- They blame you for their bad behavior
- They don’t take responsibility for anything
- They tell you that if only you did what they want, things would be better
- They call you names and put down your appearance or abilities
- They criticize everything you do, say, think, or feel.
How do you overcome shame?
Survivors of narcissistic abuse often struggle to move past feelings of shame because they believe they should be able to do so more quickly.
When we’re in a narcissistic relationship we are bombarded with shame at every turn—shame for things we haven’t done or shouldn’t feel guilty about, shame for things we wouldn’t normally be ashamed of (such as loving someone), and shame for things we would have felt prideful about prior to entering into the relationship (such as analyzing or understanding the narcissist).
Step One: Understand Why You Feel Shame
The shame you feel can be overcome by understanding why you feel it. Realize that the shame is not yours but rather the narcissist’s and that he or she projected the feelings onto you. Don’t take it on, and watch as the shame disappears.
Remember: You are not your shame.
Once you can see that this is what’s going on, even if they try to deny it, there are steps you can take to overcome the shame:
First, remember that in overcoming shame following a relationship with a narcissist, you are:
- recovering from brainwashing
- recovering from gaslighting
- learning new ways of thinking
- changing your habits and
- learning the truth about how narcissists think, act, and treat people.
These are all accomplishments – they take time, effort, and energy. Pat yourself on the back and recognize how significant that is – and then go on to step two.
Step Two: Choose Your Boundaries
So, if you’re going to set boundaries, you have to know what behaviors are acceptable for you, and which ones aren’t. Be aware that the narcissist will not love the fact that you begin to change and tolerate less and less of their disrespect and manipulation. But keep going. It’s worth it – I promise.
- Start by making a list of unacceptable behaviors.
- Check out this guide for choosing your boundaries.
Step Three: Learn to Set and Maintain Boundaries
Boundaries are extremely important in any relationship, whether it’s a friend, loved one, family, or lover. But in narcissistic abuse recovery, they can become even more important.
Narcissists don’t believe you have the right to have boundaries, but they are VERY concerned about their OWN boundaries,
Obviously, this causes problems in relationships with other people, most certainly those who are their primary sources of narcissistic supply. They overstep your boundaries to manipulate situations to get their own way. They will flit between abusive cycles of blame and manipulation to try and control you.
Your average person might not ever overstep your boundaries, or if they do, will correct their behavior if you note it. Not so with narcissists. That’s why it’s so important to maintain your boundaries in toxic relationships.
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